Do I want these things?

As Daddy and I were recently talking ,He wondered if I wanted these things:

I’ll admit when I got married the first time I  didn’t get most of these things. No ring, no beautiful wedding, no honeymoon. But I also didn’t get married for love. Things with Daddy are much different, I took my time to make sure He is the person I really wanted in my life. I didn’t rush into anything. I do want a future with Him. Question is, do I really need all those things, or just exist peacefully under the same roof with the man I love and that would be enough?

I gotta say, I never saw myself getting married again. But the idea of marrying someone who loves me, wants me in their life for more than just sex is wonderful! We have tons in common. I want to serve Him. I love our family. We just fit together perfectly. It works so well without the ring,wedding, marriage now…

Ahh , but the romantic in my soul sees all the things I’ve never had and wants them! As long as He does! It would be nice to have something wonderful with Him, as long as He feels the same way!

So there’s your answer Daddy❤️


I just looked at Him

So after a misunderstanding,  we were together both of lost as to how we went off track and derailed. Well no one ever said we were perfect. We got back on track!

The moment He walked through the door He set things in His hands down, walked over to me and we just melted into each other. Any couple can lose it for the moment, but once I saw Him, it was worth letting go of, i held Him, He was holding me. It felt so good to just feel Him next to me, His arms around me. That deep sigh we both took. Nothing is more important than that moment,nothing. 

We talked, we laughed,  He shared. He had some great news for us! That was probably the sweetest thing I had heard ever from a man. It will remain private, He always shows me in small subtle ways that I am right where I belong. 

So, after some very private time together, He was over me, just looking at me. I really looked at Him,  I could feel love coming from Him and I matched His level of desire. I saw the man I want to be with forever just staring at me and smiling. My first thought was, ” I really do want to be His wife”. One day it will be!
I did go Check out Pinterest, fb, Instagram and online for wedding ideas, bouquets, dresses, cakes,  invites, and more… I  inundated Daddy with all this stuff too. I wanted Him to get a glimpse of my thinking. To see that I’m matching His thinking. I want the same things for us, all because of this one look on His face.  There was just so much love in His eyes.  I want Him forever! 
I love you Daddy!

– His kitten

To see her happy

I get to go to Hawaii soon! Daddy and I are going to watch a friend of mine get married. I’m so happy and excited for her. She’s has been the one person I could always count on. No matter what. 

She’s had to do things for me that no friend should have to do, but she did and without complaint. But believe me the lectures were loooonnnnggg enough.

I met her online. Her name is ‘M’. For all purposes and keeping her privacy I will only give a letter. But make no mistake, her friendship means the world to me. The moment we met in person, nearly 5 yrs ago, I think! It’s been a while! It was like we had known each other forever. She’s fun to be around. She is also the only woman I’ve ever submitted to. ONLY WOMAN EVER. There was a good reason for that. Life with my mother and grandmother was horrific. I hated them. When M wanted control over me, I put up the fight of my life. Vowed never to ever be on my knees to serve any female. But after the accident, things changed for me. She had seen how abusive my ex was, and just how wild I behaved, so to keep me safe from myself she took control.

One dark night, I was to drunk to know better. I took a hot bath, but the bubble bath and all the alcohol I could drink (3bottles) not more like others remembered,  was enough to make me black out once I got out of the tub. I was standing one moment, the next I was waking up to someone shaking the shit out of me, asking was I ok?
‘ I would be fine if you quit shaking me’ , but at that moment I was in a very dark place. People around me screaming to others to call 911, I had passed out and hit my head pretty hard. Someone set me on the side of the tub and left me to see if 911 was called cuz I wasn’t doing so hot. I blacked out again, this time fell backwards into the tub. Hit the back of my head so hard. I woke to someone shaking me again.  Only this time I didn’t see anyone familiar.  I didn’t know the answers to the questions being asked. 911 had arrived, I had 2 blows to my head. No memory of anyone or anything.

My kids and M took care of me. She lived way across town, over an hour and a half away. So, it was up to my kids and M (Over the phone mostly, saw me when she could), to help me. No one else cared. Not all these men who acted like they cared, not all the ppl I partied with nearly every weekend. Just them. I was lost, lonely. I had no idea what was going on, who anyone was, but I was still wild.

M saw how I couldn’t be trusted at this time. So she took complete of my life. I think she expected me to fight her again but I was lost and I submitted. I wasn’t allowed to date, or meet anyone. No parties,  no alcohol, no fun. She and my kids took care of me. Reminded me who I was, who I am, tried to jog any memories. It was 6 months before anything ever came back to me. M moved me at this time, into a rental home. Got me motivated to work. I would put my head in her lap and cry. I didn’t know anything, anyone. Very few memories came back to me. I had been in a car accident several months before all of this so M got me to drs, took time off to help me go through 3 procedures. My kids were still helping to, but it was M who made me have hope.

To the present,  I am still great friends with M. I love my friend. She was always there for me, never left me. Got me through so much. I don’t submit to her any longer, not since my Daddy took over. M still checks on me and the kids. She still worries about me. She always wants the best for me. She has seen me through a lot. I have only had a few times to pay her back for all this. I get to be there when she marries the man who loves her! I’m so happy for them both! I know it’s not really in my budget but I will find a way. I need to be there for her like she has been there for me.

I love you M, always will! You are more than a friend to me. You’re family. I can hardly wait for you to finally marry the man of your dreams, lol. It took you guys long enough!

Thank you for all you’ve done for me. I don’t know how to pay you back. But I do love being friends!



The beauty of the ceremony of the Roses in bdsm

This ceremony goes with collaring first. Or the sub/slave has been collared for already.

The formal lifestyle is filled with traditions and ceremonies. Some haven’t been used in quite sometime, but our lifestyle has thought of everything.  If you study the lifestyle you will come across these traditions. The most beautiful, and is centuries old, is the ceremony of the Roses. It is a bonding ritual. This ceremony is all about symbolism. It actually does date back many centuries.i had to look online for the full meaning, as I have forgotten, but I have also never been through this ceremony. I have never seen one, but heard about them. I must say the hopeless romantic in me thinks it sounds breath taking. It can go along side a traditional wedding too, or stand by itself. I still think either way,  it’s a good one to go through, as traditional weddings have lost their meaning. It is all about the 2 of you. So it can be very personalized.

It’s about an eternal bond for the couple, who have decided to remain together for the duration of their lives and beyond. This is not a ’til death do us part’, but eternity. Most opt for this ritual as a statement of their eternal commitment, remember it  can be used in place of a traditional wedding, or together. It can renew the relationship,  or if a couple has gone through a difficult time together and survived the test. There are many variations. Couples can choose how to personalize it, and add special touches and make it uniquely  theirs.

This ceremony is never public. The couple should have 2 people attend, you will understand why soon enough.the submissive has a single white rose, closed, not in bloom, Symbolizes  white is the purity of her submission, her submission has not come into full bloom, never will, she will always grow and learn.Dominant has a single red rose, in full bloom. Symbolizes red is the blood he vows to shed for her protection,  and its openness  to show he lets her into his heart.  Both roses must have thorns on stems, usually white doesnt, but both must  be fresh cut. This will be for the ritual. Couple will also need a 6-8 ft light chain. Along with candles, or alcohol burner, or other liquid fuel.

Couple and 2 others stand and face each other. Candle on a small table, roses are laid down ,red first, the white across it. sub will go to her Doms side for removal of collar. Couple may wear what they want. Dom removes collar, passes it through the flame. Then puts the collar back on the sub. Symbolizes to protect and guide slave for eternity. He can make his eternal vow now.  Then they pick up the roses, sub has white, Dom has red. The dominant will prick slaves finger , 2 drops of blood fall onto petals of white rose.  Symbolizes taking the slave body and soul.  Then dominant will  prick his own finger , 2 drops of blood , one on the white petals , the other one of the  drops onto one of hers  to mingle together. Symbolizes  1st drop to shed his blood to protect slave, 2nd drop seals their unity. They can, at this time, rub the fingers together to mix the blood, they vow to become one in flesh and blood. The Roses are mingled together and they vow to be together for eternity.

The friends with them, will take the chain and pass it through the flame, quickly. Symbolizes it’s series of links thst represent all the couple has gone through. Passing the chain through fire Symbolizes it’s purification.   It is then wrapped around them as they make a vow to each other to be bound for eternity. The Roses are exchanged , as a gift to each other of their unity for eternity.The chain is carefully removed,  placed in a cloth , given to couple after ceremony. Roses are put into a single vase together, and should be placed in the bed chamber, as later that evening they will join their bodies together. 

The next morning they will take turns plucking the petals off the Roses, while talking about their hopes and dreams for the future. The petals are placed in some kind of container. The petals are kept for their lifetime. Each one will have half the petals buried with them.

The chain can either be kept, or passed down to friend or family going through the ceremony. It is a great honor to receive  the chain. It can be passed through generations.